yeah done.. so done…
done from what? email me if you really care…
Anyway, don’t know what are we going to do today.. I’m still flaming in anger.. I think I really need to do my quiet time.. meditation will help to controll my anger.
bah bah bah…. take a deep breath….. and release….
These are for today only…..
and this is what happen when mommy try to get the stuff done…
When I started my own businesses, I thought.. hmm we’ll see which one will take off first. Now everything go pretty good.. and now I’m overwhelmed..
My catering business went REALLY well.. BUT I don’t really make much money out of it and honestly it’s taking up so much time.. my precious time that I actually can play with my baby are gone because I have to be in the kitchen making 6 meals per day.
So I decided I will take a break next week and re-think what should I do with the business.. and maybe start again from ground 0.
*sigh* I need help!!!! I will try to relax next week 
First I think Carson got it, and then Carissa.. and I’m the last one left.
It’s not fun being sick and still have to take care of a baby… huuuu huuuu last night Carissa didn’t want to go to bed till like 2am ish :(. *sigh* God please give me strength to go through this…
huuu huu…. my iMac Hard drive… huu huu.. *sobbing*
I tried to install the new operating system and suddenly it died on me :(. Huu huu now I’m in the process re-installing everything. Hopefully I can retrieve some of my stuff from the document. Good thing I backed up Carissa’s pictures… I should trust my instinct! not to install that stupid OS! 
*sigh*
we’ll see whether I can retrieve some of my documents or not…. *sigh*
I am mentally and physically exhausted…
especially when I have to think about going back to work, *sigh* i have to work at night and during the day… and the whole day as a mom…
I can’t go anywhere with her, I have no idea what did I do wrong, why out of sudden she doesn’t like car rides like any other babies do.. and why can she fell asleep on her own crib or car seat. Why she gets so cranky with her daddy? why… oh why.. I’m not a super mom..
I had those one of those days at work today. I felt so cranky and crabby. I’m so jealous at those stay home pregnant women who doesn’t need to work 8 hrs a day. The fact that I do work about 50 hrs/week and pregnant. While I know some of my friends who actually quit working when they found out that they’re expecting… or they work part time instead of full time.
I feel so restless these days.. not enough sleep. While I kept on waking up at night, either because it’s hot or just simply have to go to the bathroom.
hmppf… I know that there’s a lot of sacrifices.. if I want a big house a nice car, I have to work and pay for it. Sometime I wish that I didn’t buy my car and maybe a smaller house. So I don’t have to worry about helping Carson with the payment. Oh well…
All I want is to relax and not to worry about getting up in the morning and go to work, and not to worry about when can I have time to do the dishes or laundry, or the fact that I need to vacuum the stairs.
*sigh* I just want to go home….
Note to myself: 3 more months.. destri.. 3 more months…
Here’s our adventure on Monday. We got to the airport 6 minutes late, so we missed the flight! so the lady put us stand by for the next 10:55am flight. I guess standby people means evil people, since we had to go thru the random check.
To make the story short, we made it to St. Louis with the 10:55am flight. But we found out that all the flight from orlando that go to dallas was cancelled so all the people who were going to Des Moines sent to st. louis. SO that made us one of those people who had to wait, we couldn’t make it in the 1:15pm flight so finally we actually can get a seat at 6:00pm flight. Finally we got to DSM by 7pm and drove back to Ames. FINALLY!! 
hehehe
Alright.. enough about the airport dillema, another dillema before we left to Florida… Carson lost his cellphone.. at home! I bet it’s somewhere out there… but we just haven’t found it yet. Anyway, good thing that Sara’s fiance has his old cellphone that sitting on his desk doing nothing. So i told her that I will pay for it and let Carson use it untill I can buy him a nicer phone in June (when he can actually get an upgrade phone). But Jon’s old cellphone is actually pretty decent and nice. Nicer than what carson used to have. Anyway, now our life actually back together, carson has a phone,I’m caught up with the laundry. Morgan is back.. and timmy stop demanding to be carry around like a baby (he does that everytime we leave him for a weekend trip).
When I’m felling down, sad, bad mood, depressed… this is what happened.. I started curling my hair, and put some make-up.. and voila…. 
well.. everybody has their own way to cheer them up. Better than shopping I found this method very useful and cheap. This is what many people call “Narcism” or Vain.. yes I admitted.. I’m so vain..
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These verses are for me.. and I don’t mean to offend anyone okay…
Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Lamentations 3:22-24
The unfailing love of the LORD never ends! By his mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, “The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!”