My Daily Day 2

While I was sewing more shoes downstairs, I was thinking.. did I do the right thing by staying at home my lil princess?  I’m not really sure how I feel.. sometimes I feel I have wasted my 4 yrs degree.. but actually not really wasted.. but not use it to the max.  I still do a LOT of graphic design work.. but I just don’t feel like I do since I do my design while wearing my pajamas.. no make-up,  wear my glasses while Carissa screaming wanted to sit on my lap while I do my work.

Anyway, day care is not an option for me, maybe I’m an old fashioned mom on this subject. I feel like.. leaving my kid in the day care is like handed my responsibility as a mom to someone else.. a stranger in fact.  Nothing against day care.. I know my friends who run a home day care do a great job with activities and all that stuff. I calculated.. if I work full time, I would make about $2K nett (yeah that low!) and half of them will go to the day care if I put Carissa in a day care. So I’m thinking.. enjoying my extra $1K but missing a lot of stuff with icha.. or stop shopping and be home with icha.

I prefer living pay check by pay check but still spending time my day with my baby.

I know some of moms out there have no other options than working full time.. I’m so impressed by them. I don’t think I can do it.. seeing Carissa only when she wakes up, and only see her 1-4 hr a day during weekdays. Wow..

Anyway, I’m just thinking out loud here… don’t mean to offend anyone… and again I want to say thank you for Carson who always supports in whatever decision I make.  I feel so fortunate to be able to stay at home with my lil one.

I love my life.. and I won’t change it for the world.. (well.. maybe if someone would hire me for at least $80K/year)

We’re at the inlaws paradise now..  baby is sleeping at the moment.  So I decided to catch up with some of the work that being left behind and begin to pile up.

One of the thing about working for yourself from home.. you have to have a self-motivated skill… which is really hard… but I have to!!! I tried to dedicate some of my nights to do works.. but ended up making shoes order.. I still need to make new batches for the stores here in town.  But I’m too lazy! one of my best chat buddy always encourage me to keep on doing the shoes business.  So I’m back on the game now.. but now I can’t chat with her too much these days because of that. Bah.. sorry sweetie….

Alright, I really have to start working.. work work work…

oOooo and by the way, me & my buddy just opening a new online store together.  Check it out!

Yeah… this is getting crazy… but oh well.. I gotta do what I need to do right… to keep the “che-ching” rolling in…

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as a “Home Engineer” a.k.a a full time stay at home mom.

Today was my last day at work, mixed feeling between happy & sad. I’m happy knowing that now I can fully spend time with Carissa and bring her to play dates or other activities. I’m sad because I love my coworkers, they’re so cool. *sigh* I’m gonna miss you guys.

Good news, I’m not totally stop working for them, my boss told me if they have too many projects they will give me some work. So I will work as a contractor, so we’ll see.

Thanks for everything my beloved co-workers.. you’re more than just a colleague for me.. you guys more like a family to me.

so this summer since we had the major rain & flood.. we got a LOT of bugs! ughhh i hate em!

it’s no fun playing outside anymore so many of them.  Becareful! I think they’re going to your place now.

So Ramona trusted me to hem her pants.. well these 2 pairs first, she said she has more than 2.  If I can accomplished my trial task, she will give me more to do.

So YAY!!! I finished it! so anyone.. who wants me to hem their pants.. let me know. not sure how much I will charge per pair of pants.  But it will be cheap for sure.

And.. I actually decided to buy the real sewing machine… so I can’t wait till it comes!! No more itsy bitsy sewing machine anymore.

Since I have a big project going on right now, I moved my computer to the dining room hahahah.  I’m so glad that iMac is so compact and light.

so now *hopefully* (crossing my fingers) I can finish my project while watching Carissa and cook and clean at the same time :D.

Once my project done, I have to clean my office downstairs and move the computer back again.

1 more week and then I’ll be back working part time.. *sigh* I’m not ready to leave my baby tho only for 3 hrs only.  I’ll miss her like crazy!!

It’s been a while since I update this blog.  I don’t even know what to say since all my life is about my baby girl now.

It’s hard for me transition from working all the time, busy, running here and there.  And now all I do is watch TV, play computer, chat, feed my baby, change her diaper, play with her, bathe her.

I think it’s hard to accept the idea that my priority is switch drastically from all about me to all about my baby.  I’m still trying to digest the idea that now I have this little girl who depend on me, and my priority duty right now is to feed her and shower her with as much love as I can give her.  Everyday I feel so guilty taking a nap, or not doing anything productive.  Tho feeding her 12 times a day is very productive thing I do everyday.

Hmmm…. my brain need to be re-format.

Anyway last Tuesday Carson, Carissa and I went to our company dinner at Old Chicago.  I felt like a stranger since it’s been a month that I haven’t been working there.  Tho I still chat with some of the employees, and try to stay in the loop.  But still I feel so left out :(.  I used to be a chatter box who always talk at a company dinner.  Now all I wanna do is listening to people talking and sit there, no response.. feel like a zombie. *sigh*

Anyway there’s nothing new.  Well… I get more sleep these days, Carissa already can sleep 4-5 hrs at night.  Now seems like she like the bouncer that catherine gave her.  I need to wake her up, it’s been 3 hrs.. she needs to eat!

Today was my last day at work.  It was alright, relaxing.. I know that I’m gonna miss my co-workers.  But I really need to relax before the baby born, I thought that I might have 4 more weeks left before she’s born.  But now the plan has changed… she could come anytime now.

My mom predict that she will come July 3, that’s her birthday.  So  many things to do around the house… but I will try to relax tomorrow…

Have a nice weekend everyone…

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