My Daily Day 2

While I was sewing more shoes downstairs, I was thinking.. did I do the right thing by staying at home my lil princess?  I’m not really sure how I feel.. sometimes I feel I have wasted my 4 yrs degree.. but actually not really wasted.. but not use it to the max.  I still do a LOT of graphic design work.. but I just don’t feel like I do since I do my design while wearing my pajamas.. no make-up,  wear my glasses while Carissa screaming wanted to sit on my lap while I do my work.

Anyway, day care is not an option for me, maybe I’m an old fashioned mom on this subject. I feel like.. leaving my kid in the day care is like handed my responsibility as a mom to someone else.. a stranger in fact.  Nothing against day care.. I know my friends who run a home day care do a great job with activities and all that stuff. I calculated.. if I work full time, I would make about $2K nett (yeah that low!) and half of them will go to the day care if I put Carissa in a day care. So I’m thinking.. enjoying my extra $1K but missing a lot of stuff with icha.. or stop shopping and be home with icha.

I prefer living pay check by pay check but still spending time my day with my baby.

I know some of moms out there have no other options than working full time.. I’m so impressed by them. I don’t think I can do it.. seeing Carissa only when she wakes up, and only see her 1-4 hr a day during weekdays. Wow..

Anyway, I’m just thinking out loud here… don’t mean to offend anyone… and again I want to say thank you for Carson who always supports in whatever decision I make.  I feel so fortunate to be able to stay at home with my lil one.

I love my life.. and I won’t change it for the world.. (well.. maybe if someone would hire me for at least $80K/year)

Today, finally after a longggg time, Carson and I went to a movie theater. Yeap… I don’t even remember when was the last time we went to a movie theater.  But I remember I was pregnant at the time and we went to a dollar theater, so it was so uncomfortable.

Anyway, today we finally went to see wall-e.  I think I had too much high expectation on this movie since so many people told me how awesome is this movie. So I give the movie a B+, I still think other pixar movie better.  BUT I said this just because I was expecting a hillarious movie that I couldn’t stop laughing and ended up peeing my pants.  But I didn’t :(. The worst part was, I couldn’t stop thinking about Carissa.  I know she should be fine with her grandma & pa & cousins & auntie and uncle.  But since I’m a mom, so I can’t stop thinking about her.

Overall it was good to be out on a date with my wonderful hubby… i love you hubby wubby.

After the movie we went to olive garden and got some food to go and came home to my wonderful daughter who came up to me rightaway and gave me a milk sign. Then I nursed her and everyone happy

For those of you who are dating or engage with a coach need to beware.  Yesterday Carson already warned me that he won’t be able to be around as much this week.. *sigh*  I can’t wait till the wrestling season over.  I know he does love coaching so much and I won’t take this one away from him.  But sometimes I feel like I need some rest, take a deep breath.. and just have my ‘me’ time.

Since I can’t really relax.. I’ve been sick for 2 weeks now (since Dec 26).. I’m getting better.. but still sneezing and coughing.. anyway… so I told myself next time when we have the second child, I’m gonna plan it so the baby will be born in March, so I don’t have to handle 2 kids by myself.

I don’t know how other people can take care of kids, baby, and pets. How can you people do it? I honestly don’t get it.

Tonight I finally made Apple Pie.. it’s been a while.. actually this is my first attempt making apple pie.  I bought the cheapest apples tho, it’s 99 cents per pound.  *inhale* hmm… fresh apple pie smell…

Merry Christmas ‘07 & Happy New Year ‘08

This morning my mother in law and I went a lil black friday shopping, this was my first black friday shopping and I think it’s not worth it at all.

I ended up need to return something that I bought just because I found a better deal on line. BAH! so like last year I just going to buy everything online. So now while my baby sleeping.. I’m doing my Christmas shopping. I think I got everyone except my father-in-law. *sigh* don’t know what to get for him.

I love online shopping.. they have free shipping these days.

I’m trying so hard to come up with a Christmas wish list.. here you go

- T-shirts that long enough to cover my ‘mama belly’ like.. uhmm.. (Small Size)

- Food processor to make baby food
- Baby food storage

- Baby food recipe book, maybe like this one

- Wool Pea Coat (this one is kinda hard because I need to try it on first)

Just for fun.. if you guys win a lottery.. or for Zeze.. you need to buy me this bag

But i think that’s pretty much it… I don’t need anything else.. I have everything that I need and ask for.. awesome family, a healthy, cute, smart, good baby girl, and also a great husband.

Ok now.. for Carson:

-nice tee shirts too (what’s up with our family and tees??!!) maybe something like.. (Sz. L)

-as usual white and black socks.. (just get him some cheap one since the sock fairies always steal them)

I think that’s it for now… I’ll let you know if he wants something else..

*sigh* wrestling season has been started… and we hardly see each other.. *sigh*

I wake up at 7-ish am with baby, carson still sleeping.. he left.. and then he came home we high five and I left for work.. I came home from work.. handed the baby, he left to work again.. till 9.. then I handed the baby monitor.. and I leave for work till 11.  I come home from work, change.. wash dishes.. go to sleep… and REPEAT!

*sigh* why can I have a nanny like back home!!! I’m so glad that tomorrow is Friday!!

My mom left to Minnesota today and we won’t see her till next year. This always happen to me, when my mom here I always complaining about the stuff that she did. But when she’s leaving.. I cry like a little baby… *sigh*

I’m sad that Carissa will only see her oma once a year…

I better stop talking otherwise I’ll cry again.. I’m trying to distract myself from thinking about my mom. I’ll post pictures later, Princess C is sleeping right now.

Updated: Picture added

HAH. I’m using what not.. hehehehe

Anyway, on my previous blog one of the comments is from my long lost cousin she’s not lost.. I just never seen her since she’s maybe 5 yrs old. She’s all grown up now, her name is Eva Alexander (?) not sure what’s her full name. She’s turning 15 this year.. wow.. I feel so old… she’s turning into this beautiful girl

When I was young all my family members from my dad side said that I look like her mom (Eva’s Mom). Now Eva and her family live in Singapore. Here’s her picture that I “stole” from her myspace hahahahha sorry Eva…. I just need to brag about you here :).

anyway..

my princess is sleeping next to me at the moment.. we were playing this morning since she’s up at 7am! so I was just entertaining her while she’s laying on my bed.. and suddenly she just closed her eyes and fell asleep *am I that boring??!!* hahahah I love her so much!! now she’s making her lil noises

So tomorrow my mother-in-law will go home that means it’s going to be only the three of us.  Do you think I can do it????!!! I’m scared and worry at the same time.  But I can’t hold her back, I bet my father in law already misses her.

Oh well.. we’ll see I hope I can do this.  I just feel bad sometime to wake carson up in the middle of the night since he has to work the next day while I don’t.  OOO God.. please help me to go through this.

Probably carson will end up eating hot dogs and ramen noodles till carissa sleep 5-6 hrs.

By the way, Baby Julius born today at 4:58pm thru a c-section.  Poor ringga.. she must been through a very tough labor.  She called me at 3:52am when her water broke and she only dilate 1 cm, doctor gave her pitocin to induce labor but seems like it didn’t do anything.  I haven’t talked to her yet, so this story might not be totally correct.  I told her hubby to tell ringga to give me a call once she feels much better.

Her baby was born 6.2 lbs (or 6 lbs 2 oz not sure) and 19 inches long.  Hopefully she’s doing fine… I’m worry about her but I don’t want to call her… she needs some rest and recovery.

Anyway…. wish me luck…. I don’t know what can I do without my mother-in-law.. I’m totally scared now

Happy mother’s day!! we went to marshalltown and had lunch with mom & dad, erica & the boys & grandma.  We had good food and good times!

My mission to make my weekend feels longer failed.. I gave up.. I don’t know how to make it longer.. bah…. tomorrow is monday again :(.